Sitting and staring at nothing, waiting for that perfect idea to spark in a laboratory like mind...

Okay so I've basically been sitting here for like 40 minutes just trying to figure what to post about...

I still have nothing to say, really.

I'll try at least...so like two days ago it snowed...which was extremely odd. I mean, just the day before it snowed, it was hot and humid...how does it go from that, to snowing?! It's absolutely bonkers. Bonkers but definitely a good thing, as I didn't have school on Monday because of it. Yes...I know I homeschool, and don't have to go anywhere, but it seemed so logical, it was bound to happen.

Homeschool...god I hate saying that. I mean don't get me wrong, I feel fortunate to be able to - get up when I want, go to bed when I want, and basically do what I want. And when that time of the month arrives, and I feel horrid, I get to skip that day of school usually. So, even though I feel grateful for that, I also feel...pretty much like a loser.

I mean, I get up, do school, run, eat, then spend the rest of the day on the internet pretty much. Which, don't get me wrong, I love the internet...a lot. Obviously. It's just I guess I'm kind of a loser for spending literally all my time on the computer. With the exception of dancing and the other things I just named.

Ah well, it's all right. Although I don't go to public school, I have a pretty great life in general. Yes I have my problems, and my issues and all that...and things are hard, but all and all, I have a good life. Better than most. So I should definitely be thankful for it. And I am. =)

And despite some of the things I've gone through in the past few days...I actually feel pretty happy now. For a most wonderful reason. =D

Hopes floating high, while logical thinking tries to pull them down...

So...I've been going through some pretty rough things lately...there's been fights between me and my mum, emotional tension...none of it's been very good.

Well all that actually happened a few days ago...things at this very moment are actually pretty good. There haven't been fights lately, tension...none of that. Which is quite lovely.

Anyway, besides all that, I've been thinking about Uni, and England a lot. I mean, I want to go off to a University in Oxford, England, so. But right now...I'm absolutely lusting over going to England. Thinking of going now...or sometime soonish, it really makes me smile and feel happy. I really want to go now, and check it out. I mean, I'll be going there when I'm 18 regardless, but I'd like to just go for fun now. I actually think it'd be good for me at the moment.

Ah, but that my friends is kind of a pipe dream now. Especially wanting to go by myself next year...that sure as hell won't happen. Even though I've got friends in England, there's no way I'd be allowed to go. Sadly.

But yes, that's just some random things I thought I should write about. Since it's time for an update and all.