Hopes floating high, while logical thinking tries to pull them down...

So...I've been going through some pretty rough things lately...there's been fights between me and my mum, emotional tension...none of it's been very good.

Well all that actually happened a few days ago...things at this very moment are actually pretty good. There haven't been fights lately, tension...none of that. Which is quite lovely.

Anyway, besides all that, I've been thinking about Uni, and England a lot. I mean, I want to go off to a University in Oxford, England, so. But right now...I'm absolutely lusting over going to England. Thinking of going now...or sometime soonish, it really makes me smile and feel happy. I really want to go now, and check it out. I mean, I'll be going there when I'm 18 regardless, but I'd like to just go for fun now. I actually think it'd be good for me at the moment.

Ah, but that my friends is kind of a pipe dream now. Especially wanting to go by myself next year...that sure as hell won't happen. Even though I've got friends in England, there's no way I'd be allowed to go. Sadly.

But yes, that's just some random things I thought I should write about. Since it's time for an update and all.

Sunshine on my face, while melodies so sweet speak to my soul...

So as you all probably know, today is President's Day...which actually meant that, this year I didn't have to do my studies. =D Instead I spent the day in my room, listening to music.

I don't know why, but being in my room, with the sun coming through my window, while listening to my favourite songs...it just puts me in the best mood. I love it. I wish I could do it more often. It's really good for me I think.

Although, I tend to stay up in my bedroom a lot...and so I get called reclusive. Which I won't lie, it's true. I just like to be alone though, and with my music...it's the best thing in the world to me. The hours just fly by when I'm up there relaxing. Only bad thing about me staying up there so much, is that I get fussed at for it. I just don't think anyone can really understand how wonderful it is until they've done it.

Anyway, tomorrow I start my studies again...so we'll see how well I focus then. Hopefully things will be better, since I think I'm going to run beforehand, instead of after I study. I really hope it helps. I need to take care of this problem now, or I won't get into a good Uni...or Uni at all, so.

But yes, today was relaxing, and over all pretty nice.

Studies

Right now I'm just a bit stressed. I'm having a serious issue with focusing lately, and it's driving me nuts.

I have so much I need to remember, with my studies and all, and it seems I can't pay good attention while doing them anymore. It's stressing me out and scaring me shitless. I need to be able to focus, and concentrate on what I'm doing, but I simply have too much on my mind to do so.

And then there's the fact that I'm going to be getting my Learner's Permit this year...quite soon actually. And that's more focus, and concentration! So I need to work this out now. I need to find ways to clear my mind, and just get down to business, and focus on what I'm learning. It'd help me out so much. In more ways than one, because then I wouldn't be as stressed, or freaked I won't get into Uni.

The hard part? Finding ways to solve this focus and concentration problem...so it's time to put on my thinking cap, because I've got a lot of work to do...

Oh yeah, and if anyone was wondering, I made up my blog title, and the everything below it too. I say this because my mum thought it was song lyrics. =P

Val Day

Okay, so today's Valentine's Day, which is obvious. What I call a "holiday", yes, with quotation marks, because I don't think of it as an actual holiday. =P

Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day to whoever is reading this. And I promise I'll post something for real later...I don't really have anything to say now though...and I don't feel like writing a lot. Haha.